Speaking of ADHD…

Before today, I apparently didn’t post a thing for over two weeks. There aren’t any rules around here, it’s not about that. The thing is, every one of those days I THOUGHT about posting something and ultimately did not, usually because I wanted to say something an exactly certain way, which is only ever too specific, and I couldn’t figure out how to start arranging the words just so. Usually, always. In some form or another.

It did feel like a lot of paralysis. It also did not feel like two weeks. Ah time blindness, that’s a favorite topic for another day. Suffice to say it is what it sounds like. At least, in the pictures in my head…

Ah hah finally realizing the reason it’s hard for me to learn rules for cards and board games is because the learning gets through my brain with pictures- big, colorful, surreal, interactive, crispy clear pictures that make perfect sense in my understanding of life- and when someone is telling me rules for “fun games,” I have to memorize those rules and stumble my way through the games having practically no idea what’s happening, until eventually someone says something or I realize something that starts making pictures for the rules and I can actually understand what the fuck is happening.

But I digress. I was having some ADHD paralysis and time blindness, so I didn’t post anything for a while, then all of a sudden made three posts in one day because that’s how I do. Somewhere along the way got excited about sharing about thinking in pictures. Shapes and colors mostly.